I Wish……..

I wish I could say, the feelings that went away,
I will I could tell, things I did that no one ever will..
I wish you could hear, the voice behind my silence..
I wish you could see those tears..
I wish you could feel that pain burning inside me..
You promised that we’d together..But you were never here…

I wish I could show you, your beauty in my eyes..
I wish I could I tell you, how you made me feel inside..
I wish you could know, those feelings that disappeared..
I wish you wouldn’t go,  you left but I was there..
I wish you could remember, fake promises that you made..
I wish I never had to hear, those awful things that you said.

I wish you still remember, the times we had together,
I wish you still love those things, coz nothing can ever be better..

– Anurag Upadhaya

Random Thoughts

Today will be different. It has to be. I will smile, and it will be believable. My smile will say, "I'm fine, thank you. Yes, I feel much better." I will no longer be the sad guy. I will start fresh, be someone new. It's the only way I'll make it through. I thought that I could smile and nod my way through it, pretend like it would all be okay. I had a plan, I wanted to change who I was, create a life with someone new. Without the past, without the pain. Someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you. They follow you. You can't escape them, as much as you want to. All you can do is be ready for the good, so when it comes, you invite it in. Because you need it. I need it. Today I convinced myself it was okay to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama. Now is just not the time. But, my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth and truth is that, I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself to be happy for even one moment that, the world's just going to come crashing down, and I don't know if I can survive that.
Dear Blog, I know its been a while. A long while. I haven't needed or I haven't wanted to write this stuff down, but I don't want to say it out loud either. The thing is I'm a loser, and I hate it. I feel hopeless, depressed, angry. But most of all, I'm scared. Part of me just wants to end it, but then I think of people around me and find that I'm very lucky. So I need to find a way through this. No matter what it takes.

The above lines are modified version of script from The Vampire Diaries Season 1 Episode 1. These T.V. shows sometime contain very emotional and touching script. These lines were played along with The Fray’s song “Never say Never” making it one of best episode.

Short Moral Story – 1

Long time ago, in a village far, very far away in the foothills of The Great Himalaya, there lived an old wise man. The man was famous for his wisdom. People not only from his village, but also from nearby village come to get wisdom and blessings from this great old man.

In the village, there were few young mind who were suspicious of his visionary wisdom, made a plan to prove wise old man wrong. Their plan was pretty simple. Their plan was to keep a alive butterfly in their fist and ask wise old man if the butterfly is alive or dead. The planned to kill the butterfly by crushing in their fist if old man says the butterfly is alive, or to leave the butterfly flying, if he says that butterfly is dead.

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With their motive to prove old wise man wrong, they visited him when he was addressing gathering with his wisdom under the Peepal tree(Ficus religiosa or sacred fig). Young men stopped in between of his speech and asked if the butterfly in their fist is alive or dead. It doesn’t took time by old man to know their intention of young men. Wise old man not only gave answer but also astounded the audience with his wisdom.

Old man turned toward audience and told, “Our life is like this butterfly, it is in your hand to make it alive or make it dead. So what ever is the case, weather to make life happy or unhappy, it is your decision“. Spellbonded audience not only amazed by old man’s intelligence but their respect for him increases. The young men got their answer and were repenting for suspecting on Old man’s knowledge.

Image Credit : http://www.downtoearth.org.in/content/story-principled-chief-conservator-forests-bastar-chhattisgarh

A Song Dedicated For You, My Dear Alcoholic Drinks!

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Recently I was listening to this awesome song “Sugar Rush” By A-Teens. And while thinking on it found that this song can be funnily dedicated to all alcoholic drinks :P. Here is lyrics for the song :

I get a high whenever you’re around
Sweeping from head to my toes
I, I gotta get my feet back on the ground

‘Cause you make me go
Out of my way (out of my way)
Crossing the line (crossing the line)
Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don’t wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain’t nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
You are my sugar rush
I start to blush
I got a sweet tooth
And a taste for you
And it might be too obvious but
I (I) I can’t help myself from what I do

‘Cause you make me go
Out of my way (out of my way)
Crossing the line (crossing the line)
Making me say what I have in mind

(You make) you make me so excited
And I don’t wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain’t nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
(You are) I´m loosing touch
You are my sugar rush

Baby you’re my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You’re the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you’re my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much

‘Cause you make me go
Out of my way (out of my way)
Crossing the line (crossing the line)
Making me say what I have in mind

(You make) you make me so excited
(I don’t) and I don’t wanna fight it
(You are) I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
(It ain’t) ain’t nothing better, baby
(For real) is it for real or maybe?
(You are) I´m loosing touch
You are my sugar rush

(You make) baby you’re my sugar rush
(I don’t) I get weak and talk too much
(You are) you’re the sweetest thing I ever tasted
(It ain’t) baby you’re my sugar rush
(For real) I get weak and talk too much
(You are)
You are my sugar rush

 

Meanwhile here is original video for the song :)

Lyrics Credit : sing365.com

Image Credit : Sushrut Bidwai