Today will be different. It has to be. I will smile, and it will be believable. My smile will say, "I'm fine, thank you. Yes, I feel much better." I will no longer be the sad guy. I will start fresh, be someone new. It's the only way I'll make it through. I thought that I could smile and nod my way through it, pretend like it would all be okay. I had a plan, I wanted to change who I was, create a life with someone new. Without the past, without the pain. Someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you. They follow you. You can't escape them, as much as you want to. All you can do is be ready for the good, so when it comes, you invite it in. Because you need it. I need it. Today I convinced myself it was okay to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama. Now is just not the time. But, my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth and truth is that, I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself to be happy for even one moment that, the world's just going to come crashing down, and I don't know if I can survive that.
Dear Blog, I know its been a while. A long while. I haven't needed or I haven't wanted to write this stuff down, but I don't want to say it out loud either. The thing is I'm a loser, and I hate it. I feel hopeless, depressed, angry. But most of all, I'm scared. Part of me just wants to end it, but then I think of people around me and find that I'm very lucky. So I need to find a way through this. No matter what it takes.
The above lines are modified version of script from The Vampire Diaries Season 1 Episode 1. These T.V. shows sometime contain very emotional and touching script. These lines were played along with The Fray’s song “Never say Never” making it one of best episode.
Recently I was at Startup Saturday Pune, for attending event on Attracting Traffic to Website. One question which I seen people asked while keynotes and after event networking was “Why different people/firm charge differently for same product or services”
There may be someone who may charge 500 bucks for a service/product. But there may be someone who will charge you 5000 bucks for the same!
Same question is sometimes asked to freelancers ( My Dear clients sorry if it hurts ). And this question reminds me one of the best update on facebook by my friend Priyam Malhotra.
The Status read as:
If you ask yourself why ARTISTS (Photographers, Designers, Singers, Dancers, Musicians, Tattooists, Painters, Makeup artists, or anyone who falls under the artist category) charge “so much” for services… We don’t get paid vacation, we don’t get paid sick days, we don’t get bonuses for outstanding performances nor for Christmas. We don’t have insurance plans. We sacrifice our family on special days so that we can bring fond memories and happiness to others. Illness or personal affairs are not excuses for a bad performance. Next time you ask, remember that ARTISTS are ARTISTS because of the love of their craft, but that love doesn’t pay debts.. Happy Artists Day..!!
So that would be mine answer too! In addition some may charge much as they are “Experienced One”, and trust me; sometimes you would like to give your work to Experienced one rather then those who are new in field!
To summarize all I can say is what you paid is what you get.
Anurag Upadhyay : For all the encouragement and suggesting title for the post :)
Priyam Malhotra : For FB Status update
Last but not least, to Rajesh Pandey a.k.a. Pandu, for not disturbing while composing this whole jumbo mumbo.
P.S. : Today is Priyam’s Birthday. It would be nice if you can help spreading about his good work in the field of photography :) Have a look at http://priyammalhotra.com/. Meanwhile I got 2 Whatsapp message from Rajesh while I was composing Credits :P
I beg your pardon for dropping you to this page. This is to intimate you that there is nothing I can help you in this matter. Please take some pain and search the query you asked me yourself. I know its really hard for you to search even the easiest thing over the internet. But really it will be helpful to me if you can search whatever you are asking to me. It will make my life a lot easier :)
You can search on various search engines like google, bing etc. etc. Thanks for understanding and saving my time by not asking same thing again!
To start with, you should know Human wants are unlimited, so its almost impossible to satisfy any human being. If one think from positive side, human need to be unsatisfied, else our race will never go ahead! It was only unsatisfied desire of human, that we have aeroplane to mobile to all latest technology which you can imagine.
But sometime for a developer like me, feel it very irritating. Let me tell you one short incident or call it a story, to understand the situation.
Once there was a painter, he painted a nice portrait of himself. Upon completing of portrait, he place it on a busy road junction and asked people to comment/suggest him on portrait. As usual being human being, one gave suggestion that nose should be little bit upward, one suggested eyes should be small and like that list goes on. Though there were few comment that portrait is best according to them but it was like a drop in the ocean.
The painter got depressed, and thought he put his bes effort to make best out of him, he didn’t got the response he expected. One wise old man ( like me :P ) upon understanding situation guided him a path to overcome this situation. So the painter placed the picture with all comment and asked people to prepare a portrait like as said in comment. ultimate result no one came to do so.
So the moral of the incident or story is that its in human nature to give free suggestion. But when come to impliment or apply those suggestion, every one will wash their hands from it.
P.S.: My dear friends and clients, I can not satisfy you all anyways.
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