My life in Year 2020

By | Editorial

The year 2020 might be a lot for many people. Here is my summary for the Year 2020.

Nothing significant happened in the month of Jan and Feb. In March 2020, just two days before lock-down was imposed in Maharashtra, India, my main working machine, MacBook Air decided not to power itself on. It was very distressing situation for me, as at the time that was the only machine which I use exclusively for work related activity, be it development or resolving day to day client queries.

At the time, I had Intel NUC and an Samsung Laptop working as development and production server for my business activities, which I never intended to use as my work machine. But I tried to up working station by setting up Intel NUC in 10 hours.

Although the very next day I found a shop which can repair MacBook Air. I had no intention of giving MacBook Air to Authorized repair center as I heard a lot of horror stories about the inefficiency about them not delivering the machine on time[1] and overcharging the customer by providing wrong information about the fault[2].

The local repair shop repaired the laptop the very same day within 8 hours and didn’t charged kidney for repair. I was happy that I got my work machine back. The most shocking news came after reaching home after collecting MacBook air that a Lock-down will be announced in state from very next day.

In upcoming few days, a nationwide lock-down also got announced. The major problem while having this was that a product require can not be procured either via local shops or via online selling platforms. One of the water pump also gave up during this period and thanks to backup water pump, all was set to go.

This all set me thinking what if my machine give up and if there is an urgent request from the client? The answer was that I will have a lot of problem. In the month of May, when my production server decided to die I had restless sleep for few days. I backed up the production server on Intel NUC and got it up running within 24 hours, thanks to an awesome technology called docker :)

This sudden death of main server boosted my thinking of having multiple point of backups. So when the lock-down eased I’ve done following :

  1. Increased RAM of Intel NUC from 8GB to 16GB
  2. Purchased a Raspberry Pi 4 8GB model for backup workstation
  3. Purchased additional backup disks and have backup on all these backup disk.
  4. Started Investing in Solar Backup.(40W at the time of writing)
  5. Having backup routers.

From July 2020, I start getting lots of request for Online admission system, which was almost like ready for me. The most important part was recording the payment activity as client were not inclined towards integrating payment gateway(as of writing this article the clients are now ready to integrate the payment gateway as transaction reference for NEFT, UPI are very notorious which can appear differently in band statements of Payee and Payer.) This goes on till Dec 2020. In the meantime I shifted all my Evernote data to Joplin, and sync it across devices using Local Web DAV server.

Also I tried unsuccessfully the roof top gardening since Mar 2020, and I think I am not good at it. But the garden is yielding a lot of Tulsi herbs lately which I never planned. So let go with whatever grows without any problem :)


[1] Tweets by Rajesh Pandey (

Reference: Bad after service by Apple in India (Credits : Rajesh Pandey (

Reference: Bad after service by Apple in India Tweet Credits : Rajesh Pandey

[2] Rants by Louis Rossmann on his channel  (

I wish I could tell you...

By | Editorial, Poem

I wish I could tell you, what’s going on in my mind...

I wish I could tell you...

A thousand things I want to have.... and a thousand things I want to do...
But as I get near to them... I feel that my reality isn’t even true.

I wish I could tell you the things going around.
I was just looking for simple happiness. Even that I could not found...

There are voices in my head, and I listen to music to shut them down.
But all I could listen are just noises... to calm your soul there aren’t enough sounds...

There are a million things I want to show and a million things I want to say.
I hope that God is looking down on us... and just to get enough time, I pray...

Not sure if there are enough words or there is enough time.
And to tell you all that...I’m just making this rhyme...


-Anurag Upadhaya

Random Thoughts

By | Editorial, Pravachan

Today will be different. It has to be. I will smile, and it will be believable. My smile will say, "I'm fine, thank you. Yes, I feel much better." I will no longer be the sad guy. I will start fresh, be someone new. It's the only way I'll make it through. I thought that I could smile and nod my way through it, pretend like it would all be okay. I had a plan, I wanted to change who I was, create a life with someone new. Without the past, without the pain. Someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you. They follow you. You can't escape them, as much as you want to. All you can do is be ready for the good, so when it comes, you invite it in. Because you need it. I need it. Today I convinced myself it was okay to give up. Don't take risks. Stick with the status quo. No drama. Now is just not the time. But, my reasons aren't reasons, they're excuses. All I'm doing is hiding from the truth and truth is that, I'm scared. I'm scared that if I let myself to be happy for even one moment that, the world's just going to come crashing down, and I don't know if I can survive that.
Dear Blog, I know its been a while. A long while. I haven't needed or I haven't wanted to write this stuff down, but I don't want to say it out loud either. The thing is I'm a loser, and I hate it. I feel hopeless, depressed, angry. But most of all, I'm scared. Part of me just wants to end it, but then I think of people around me and find that I'm very lucky. So I need to find a way through this. No matter what it takes.

The above lines are modified version of script from The Vampire Diaries Season 1 Episode 1. These T.V. shows sometime contain very emotional and touching script. These lines were played along with The Fray's song "Never say Never" making it one of best episode.